Friday, July 15, 2011

Love is.

wanted
needed
desired
devoured
questioned
denied

keeping you up at night
waking you in the middle of the night
waiting for you in the morning

helping you find yourself when you are young
living life with you daily
sustaining you in old age

laughing with you
crying with you
rejoicing with you
mourning with you

remembering the little things
seeing the big picture
taking the fall
lifting you up

easy
difficult
complicated
simple

denied
questioned
devoured
desired
needed
wanted

Love is.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

What's in a Name?

The answer is simple. Everything. I have many many many friends and family members who are expecting children at the moment. The topic of names has come up plenty of times in the last few hours alone. Sure, every young girl dreams about having her own family some day, and with that is the list of potential names for those offspring. My friends and I even had this discussion in California a couple of weeks ago.
It's tricky business, right? Naming a person. I mean, it's for life! You don't want the kid to be made fun of. You need something that sounds "right" with the last name. Plus, there's the entire debacle about throwing in that middle name. Oh yeah, and the idea of calling a baby, a toddler, school aged kid, teenager, young adult, adult, and elderly person this name throws another hitch in the plan. The name has to suit all age groups. Yep, tricky.
I myself like the idea of mixing family, modern, and old names together. I have always advised friends to look up 1920's, 30's, 40's census information to see what names were popular then. Like everything else, it comes back around. So, a name that was popular then might be suitable for now, but not overused. These are just my opinions.
As a teacher, I also have a whole new perspective on names. Names are used in primary grades for a plethora of learning opportunities. And there is that sad yet true rumor that certain kids with certain names can ruin the name for life!
I know, I know. I am not a parent. But please, please, please, parents--- don't take this job lightly. Pick a good, solid, joke-free name for your child. After all, they have to live with it long after you are gone!

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Lazy Hazy Days of Summer

Some days are just meant to be lazy. Lazy with quiet hours of reading. Lazy with a sappy love movie. Lazy with sun, a pool, and a friend.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Digging Deep

Maybe I am the only person in the world that this happens to, maybe not. Sometimes I feel my anger rising, and I can't stop it. The weird thing is that I can't quite nail down the reason I am so upset. Perhaps it is some unwrapped insecurity or the let down of expectations. Maybe it is feeling left out or unimportant. It might be feelings leaping over from another situation to haunt me. Every so often I am honest with myself enough to admit what is truly bothering me and spiking my blood. But sometimes I just can't or won't unearth the buried answer. Honesty is underrated. It's essential for interacting with others, but it is vital for dealing with myself.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Small Moments

One of the reasons I started blogging is to experience the discipline of writing daily. I ask that of my first graders, so why not try it myself. Here is what I have learned so far: it's not as easy as I thought.
I now realize that having a "story" every day is not as plain and simple as I had expected. I have plenty of ideas stumbling around in my head and even in my heart. But I have come to realize that they are not all ripe. Some are too close to home still. Some have fallen flat. Some are still being lived out. And some are too lengthy or too short for my moods.
One thing I have challenged myself with is to find the small moment of the day. I think I might even try this with my first graders in the upcoming year. My ideas are not fully formed yet, and clearly neither are my experiences.
I always practice and understand the importance of modeling for my students (not with clothes, but rather with strategies). But now that I have done some adult writing of my own, I think I am ready to start transforming that into what it means for 6 and 7 year olds.

Here is my small moment for the day:

Exercise is a pretty regular thing around my house. We are all interested in being socially, environmentally and health-consciouse. So, L and I decided to go on a bike ride to start our day. We have many different paths and routes that let us explore our wonderful G-town. Today we took a familiar one down the Mill Race to the dam. Once we get to the dam, I love to latch onto the fence, balance on my bike, and watch the water spill over the edge and foam at the bottom in celebration of the trip. Today was particularly joyful because the clouds were shielding us from the hot sun, and the ducks were out feasting on the algae and bugs.
It was peaceful, isolated, and serene. Maybe a little too peaceful.
I am sure most people have experienced and heard of the "calm before the storm". Well, we should have taken note that the clouds were not just guarding us from pre-mature wrinkles, but also growing in size and darkness.
It was inevitable, though. We were too far from home and the clouds were rolling too quickly. It started to storm. L has a fear of tornadoes, so that was an immediate source of conversation. I don't love the idea of being on a metal bike when lightening is present. Thus, we opted for an abandoned office building to take cover for a few minutes. The rain came down in sheets of drops. It was beautiful to watch them sweep over the land before us. It was like watching a time-elapsed video of rain. Eventually, the lightening subsided and the sheets became just steady drops. We started again, pedalling toward the house. We eventually made it home, soaked from pink hat to green shoe.
On our way back, I remarked that I don't think I have been out in the rain, on my bike since I was 10 years old. We both smiled. It wasn't what we had expected on our morning trip, but it sure was an experience!

I hope to collect, remember, and cherish small moments like these. More importantly, I hope to cultivate this kind of thinking in my first graders. Writing isn't just about the mechanics. It is a process, an art, a love.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Sister

I have one biological sister who is seven years older than I am. She and I have had a tumultuous past at times, but have come to understand, rely on, and love ane another. We are sisters, afterall. Last month my sister called me to tell me that she is accepting a job in Texas.
Some background on my family might be important at this point. My entire family lives in central Ohio. My cousins, grandparents, siblings, parents- everyone! R. has worked for The Ohio State University for the past ten years and even earned her Master's degree and PhD from that wonderful establishment. She has lived her entire 33 years in Ohio. She has a live-in boyfriend, 3 cats, and a charming home there.
This job is not just a job. It is a change. And a big one.
Since I have lived outside of Ohio for the past 8 years, it is very exciting to me. I think it is a wonderful experience to move away from everything you know and start over. That doesn't mean it is fun or easy. But it is stretching, reflective, and important.
It might be weird to say, seeing as how I am the younger sister, but I am proud of her. She has taught me many things over the years. She has had a hand in many of my major milestones. She taught me to blow bubbles in bubble gum, drive a manual car, and how to be a strong, independent woman.
I will say it again. I am proud of my sister. Here's to you, sis, and your future success in Texas!

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Beach Babes

Today a dear friend of mine and I decided to head for the beach! Since she works in the summertime and the days when all four of us are home are rare, we decided to throw boredom to the wind and make the sun our goal!
Throughout our day I was reminded of how much I love the summer. Sure, its nice because technically I don't work, but besides that there are many benefits.

In the summer I love to ride in the car with the windows down and the tunes BLARING!
In the summer I love to read books on the beach.
In the summer I love bon-fires.
In the summer I love sleeping with my fan on in my room.
In the summer I love staying up way tooooo late and sleeping in a little.
In the summer I love planting flowers and watching them grow.
In the summer I love picking fresh produce from our garden.
In the summer I love getting a sun tan...errr burn.
In the summer I love starry nights (like the ones I saw in California last week!)
In the summer I love sleeveless shirts and flipflops.
In the summer I love eating dinner on our back porch.
In the summer I love people watching at the beach.
In the summer I love not putting on makeup because I have a tan!
In the summer I love seeing the bean fields full of fireflies!

Today could have been ordinary. Instead, it was extraordinary!