20/20

Sometimes you don't know what you want until it's not an option anymore. Then start the "what ifs" and "shoulda's". I keep telling myself that "what's done is done" (another well intentioned cliché), and "it wasn't meant to be". However, my heart is just sad.

I am sure at another point in life I will look back at this time, this feeling, maybe even this very post and think "I had to go through that". Hindsight... I guess it really is 20/20. I am sure it will continue to be.

But for the time being, no matter what my head says, my heart is low. It's pace has been thrown off. My hope is fading.