I am perhaps ready to admit it. I am not very good at dealing with change.
In my head I know it is necessary, essential and even inevitable. But my heart gets thrown onto a roller coaster ride every time. The crazy part is that I don't ever prepare my heart for it. I go through it millions of ways and times in my head. I play and re-play scenarios in my brain. But every time I am puzzled by the pendulum swing of emotions and irrational thoughts surrounding the upcoming change.
Why can't I deal with it? I have been encountering this boogie monster since I was a little kid. In fact I deal with it on a daily basis. It shouldn't be a stranger to me. I shouldn't feel like I have entered someone else's life. I don't want to get side swiped by my own heart when my head is telling me 50 other rational thoughts.
Someone once said that the longest distance is from your head to your heart. For me, change must get way-laid on the journey!