Sometimes I start to feel sad, lonely, or wanting more. Yes, believe it or not, I have not accomplished all of the things I have set out to do in life. Someday I want a husband, kids, a house of my own, family errands, basketball games, concerts, family vacations and the like. I don't like to admit these things to myself, let alone a cyber world of people I may or may not know. I have probably always been the independent, make life your own, defy the odds, break the mold, shake things up kind of Woman. (Yes, that's a capital W...on purpose).
Tonight could have been one of those nights. Sitting at a coffee joint with 5 chairs around the table. Yes, five is an odd number. That means two and two... and one more. As I glanced around all I could see were twos. There were some threes or fours, but those included littles.
Then I had a different thought. Wait. Remember. Enjoy. I spent the day with loved ones, laughing, smiling, cherishing. The afternoon was filled with fun at school for the Family Fun Fair. I got to chat, hold babies, hug first graders, and help spread joy. I get to come home each night to friends who love me and want what's best for me. My family (even though far away) call, write, and visit often. I have a job that I love and am good at. All of a sudden there were blessings flooding through me.
When I looked around this time, I didn't see twos. I saw blessings. The baby in front of me smiling, reminding me of innocence. The couple holding hands showing me that commitment does still exist. The band illustrating the joy in tune, rhthm, and good ol' fashioned f-u-n. The coffee sitting before me telling me to enjoy the simple pleasures.
So, raise a glass and join me on the journey of pushing aside the woeful feelings and giving way to the blessings before us!